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Women World Leaders' Podcast


Jan 23, 2023

From a Hippie to a princess, Jane "Goldie" Winn, shares her story of being a young Jewish hippie who went through a second-trimester abortion. Goldie shares hope and encouragement of how she broke free from the stronghold of her past. Goldie's book, "Rainbow In The Night," is an inspiring 20-year redemption story that is now being made into a movie for the big screen.
 
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Kimberly Hobbs  
Welcome to Empowering Lives with Purpose. And I'm your host, Kimberly Hobbs. I'm the founder of Women World Leaders. And we are so happy that you tuned in today. Today I'd love to welcome our guest, Jane Goldie Winn from Delray Beach, Florida welcome, Jane.

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Thank you, Kimberly, thank you for having me on your podcast today and welcome to all the listeners.

Kimberly Hobbs  
Yes, amen. And Goldie's is going to speak today about hope and encouragement, we all need a little bit of hope and encouragement, right? And she shares her story today. Ladies, our desire to have you here is to strengthen and encourage each other in the name of Jesus to walk together to empower one another, to find your beautiful purpose in Jesus and serving Him. God is working in you ladies. He's giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases Him. That's actually a scripture verse in Philippians 213 He gives us that desire to Run after Him and serve Him with all our heart. And it's our hopes that as you listen to these podcasts, that you will be inspired by something that you hear that will allow you to move in that direction, to run after God to seek Him with all your heart and to serve Him because He is amazing. He is the God of exceedingly abundantly beyond what we could ever ask for. So as we talk with Goldie today, and she shares her incredible story about abortion, she wants to deliver that message of there is hope beyond shame and guilt and the things that we sometimes carry because of our past. So I want to tell you a little bit about Miss Goldie when. Today she is a published author. She is a client advocate in a pregnancy resource clinic in South Florida, where she counsels abortion determined clients in the throes of decision making and hoping that she can pour some love and light into their situation. She speaks at churches and congregations and shares her testimony of transformation from a hippie to a princess. When the devastation of a second trimester abortion drove this young Jewish hippie into darkness and despair. She shares about the hope and encouragement of how she broke free from the stronghold of her past. And that's exactly what we love doing here on empowering lives with purpose because we all have pasts. And how did you overcome that? How did Jesus find you where you were? And Goldie's incredible life story is titled rainbow in the night. And she has a 20 year redemption journey which is now in the process of being made into a movie. She has a book that's written on it. She's Goldie is also a Messianic Jew. She has been married to her soulmate Dave since 1974. And together they reside in South Florida. So Goldie as we begin right now, I would love for you to share a little bit about that past and abortion story and what you had gone through as a young, hippie girl, just finding her way, right and life.

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Yes, well, if you watched Forrest Gump, I would have been a little bit like Jenny, what can I tell you? But anyway, just to give some backstory, I grew up in a small Midwestern town in Independence, Iowa, about 5000 people. And my father was a psychiatrist, a very renowned psychiatrists. He came he was asked to be the superintendent in 1958. And when he arrived, there were 1100 patients. And it was a very formidable structure and a very interesting childhood to grow up in this hospital setting. There were 500 employees. And I remember when we first drove up to the hospital, my father's first words were, what did I get myself into? I have to get these bars off the windows. This is terrible. And so my father ended up doing amazing things for that hospital and in the field of psychiatry, but behind closed doors, he was very different. And unfortunately, he was physically and emotionally abusive mostly to my older sister and somewhat to me, and it was very hard because, you know, we lived right in the administration building, and we would have to go down this winding beautiful winding staircase into the lobby, and every time we would go to the lobby, the entire staff would stand up and respect from my father. Wow, a patriot Americans so well respected. So it was very confusing for me growing up in two worlds feeling like I had to, you know, keep everything literally behind closed doors and try to bridge those worlds together. So unfortunately, when I went away to college, I'd never really dated anyone because, again, living in Independence, I will, there are no Jewish people. And my father didn't want me to marry outside the faith. So it kept me away from being able to date anyone. But when I arrived on campus, Drake University in Des Moines, Iowa in 1967, I was a music major, and it was when the hippie thing was just getting off the ground. And when I was approached about it, you know, free love sex, drugs, rock and roll, I figured I had nothing to lose, because I really didn't have any identity. And I wanted to be accepted and liked by so many people. So I did get involved in it, unfortunately, and fast forwarding the story did take 20 years to complete my book, because I had to work through a lot of issues to get to the other side, before I could write about it from a place of freedom and hope. But I got embroiled in that lifestyle. And one thing led to the other and I found myself pregnant. And it was in 1970, before Roe vs. Wade, although abortion was legal in some states, and one such state was California and I was going to school in Michigan at the time, I had transferred to work in major music therapy. And I just I was living in a hippie commune. And I just thought, There's no way I could have this baby, my father would, I can't even imagine what he would do. Like he disowned my sister for marrying a Catholic. So you can only imagine him he ended up accepting her back after two and a half years. But I didn't want that kind of rejection. So I just had to have an abortion. And unfortunately, I went into denial. And I waited a little too long. They told me it was a blob of tissue. And I believed it because there was no ultrasound or anything like that. So I ended up having to go to the hospital in San Diego was which was where I went. And, and actually, I remember, at the time, you know, I just didn't know what to expect. But because I was so far along, I was well into my second trimester and had no idea because I didn't have any symptoms, I was 70 pounds heavier, mostly because I was doing drugs. But I guess the pregnancy contributed as well. But I didn't have any symptoms. So it's easy to go into denial. But I remember they did, sadly, the saline solution abortion and then I was brought into a room and I was told to just press a button when the when the baby stopped kicking. So right then and there, it dawned on me that it was a baby. So unfortunately, when I had to deliver the baby, and the nurse had said, Oh, you would have had a perfect baby boy. But because that was so traumatic. I didn't know the Lord back then it went down into denial, which is the most basic of all psychological defenses. And I did not remember it until 27 years later, when I was working in a pregnancy center as a counselor and had to go through post abortion, healing and recovery. And it was there that I got in touch with a full awareness of the abortion. And I just thought I would never stop crying. I thought, you know, that baby because I talk a little bit later about how I came to know Jesus. But at that moment, you know, just having to accept that that baby died because I made that decision was horrific. So through the Bible study, forgiven and set free, I was able to come to the other side of it. And it's hard for women who've had abortions to forgive themselves. So I had to forgive myself. And then I had to accept God's forgiveness. And at the end, we have a memorial service, we're able to name our babies. And I named my baby Samuel, which in the Jewish religion, if you have a son, you name him after your father's first initial, which was Seelig. And so I named him Samuel. And at the very end, they gave, you know, like a certificate. And when I went home, I remember my husband and I don't have children. That's part of our story. But when I came home, and I showed him the certificate, he said, I would like to adopt your baby. So that didn't happen, we will have a child together. And that's the kind of nice Yes, I know he's so special, my true soulmate. And you know, and I was just like, so that's, you know, pretty much the actual story, but the Lord has redeemed it in many ways, which we'll talk about in a minute. But I'm just to be able to share this, this story to bring hope to other women that you know, healing is possible. Forgiveness Is Possible redemption, you know, and the most uses everything in our lives, everything for his greater purposes.

Kimberly Hobbs  
He does everything. And that's a scripture that I just, the Lord says, I Yes, I alone will blot out your sins for my own sake, and I will never think of them again. Isaiah 4325. And even though in that moment didn't, you didn't understand you didn't know what was happening. You know it. God removes that from you and look at your story, Goldie, it is just I mean, I my ears, my eyes started tearing up, my heart was pounding and I had goosebumps at the same time like, that is just amazing how God allowed you to go through the healing process. But he tells us there is forgiveness for all of us who repent. Luke 2447 says that, right? So there is hope, ladies, there's hope for our past mistakes, yours may not be abortion, it may be something else that has been just traumatizing you for years and years and you've not been able to release it. There is hope for you. Because God says there is forgiveness of sins for all of us who repent, and then he makes a way to move forward. So Goldie, what, what it seems now that, you know, guilt would follow you forever. It didn't you said and you shared a little glimpse of that. So how did God redeem you, Goldie?

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Yeah, that's a great question, Kimberly. Well, he's just so amazing, you know, because again, you know, this Jewish girl, we were taught growing up, you know, never to believe in Jesus, because it's like way the Jews and they the Gentiles, and unfortunately, many Jewish people put Hitler in the category of Christians, you know, and my father did that. So it was just like, I could never even think about believing in Jesus, but the Lord again, in His mercy, you know, when we cry out to Him, you know, he has a way of coming to us. And I was, my husband and I had been, we met, and we were musicians right away. And we were touring with this band, and we're living in the Midwest. And, and I remember, I, all of a sudden, you know, something happened in my heart. And I just thought, I don't know if I can do this for the rest of my life. And I remember going outside one day, and I just fell on my face, and I cried out to the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and he said, if you're real, please reveal Yourself to me. Otherwise, I want to die. And all of a sudden, I just felt this blanket of peace come over me. And it's not like I saw lightning or heard bolts of thunder, but I felt his peace. And then long story short, the Lord. I just decided I had to get out of that crazy lifestyle of singing to a bunch of drunks with a bunch of drunks, I couldn't handle it anymore. Dave stayed a little while longer. But I just felt like I wanted to do volunteer work. So I started working in a facility where there was a girl, you know, there and we were trying to help other kids not take drugs away. We did. And I was drawn to her because she had so much joy. And long story short, um, she invited Dave and I, we were living together at the time. We met in 1971. And she had invited us to this, what we now know, is a prayer meeting a Catholic charismatic prayer meeting with all kinds of denominations there, everything you can imagine from Lutheran to Presbyterian to you, you name it, they were there. And there was just I remember when we walked in, you know, we had our bell bottoms and our tie dyed shirts. And we didn't know if people would accept us, but they did immediately. And again, you know, when we were used to singing to drunks, and we saw these people who were worshipping, again, you know, their hands are raised to Jesus, and they were singing songs to Jesus, Dave and I looked at each other, like, what is this, but something was stirring in our heart. And we thought, maybe that's what we need, you know, we need God. So long story short, people came up to us and you know, just lovingly and kept inviting us back. And about the third prayer meeting, there was a priest and a nun who just basically invited Dave and I, to receive Jesus as our Messiah. And I thought, but I'm Jewish, and I don't know if I can do that. But they I thought to myself, What do I have to lose? I was just getting really depressed again, and just losing hope because of the lifestyle. So together August 4 1974, we got on our knees, we prayed to receive your shoe Oh, which is the Jewish name for Jesus. And they've been they've prayed to receive Jesus had been brought up Catholic. And at the moment, I came to pray that prayer I was filled with joy of the Lord totally filled with joy the Lord, because I was always depressed all my life. And so this was the sign that I needed in First Corinthians 122. You know, the Jew requires a sign. And I was given a word that day, Goldie, Your gift will be the gift of joy. And I was just filled with joy. And the Scripture is Second Corinthians 517. Therefore, if anyone be in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has passed away and all things have become new. And that's exactly what happened. I mean, I was just flooded with joy and peace. And you know, from that moment moment on our lives were never the same Dave and I knew we were living in sin, and we got married three months later, and we've been serving the Lord ever since. And I guess the way Kimberly, he totally redeemed it as now all these years later, I'm still, I started working in 1997 After I got my master's degree in social work in a Pregnancy Clinic, and I was, you know, counseling women and helping them. And then when we moved to Florida in 2011, the Lord led me to work in a Pregnancy Clinic here. And so now after helping women heal from abortion, which has been my heart for many years now I'm on the other side, helping women who are in the process of making decisions about their pregnancy, so I can use my abortion story to help them know that it's not the quick, easy fix, they think it is that there's a dark side to abortion. So he has totally redeemed my story over and over and over again. And my Wow, touch so many women, you know, who are still feeling the pain of their abortion because if he can free me, he can free them to

Kimberly Hobbs  
Amen. Goldie, amen. God restored that joy to you. He gave you joy, the joy of your salvation, right? Yeah. So and also hope, hope to continue living in this world that gets us to go forward. And so you were living now beyond your shame and guilt that you carried you were redeemed is just so beautiful. And ladies, there's a scripture that says, hope in the Lord. For with the Lord there is unfailing love. His redemption overflows at Psalm 130, verse seven, ladies, you can be redeemed, redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, which is Jesus Christ and inviting him into your heart, asking him for forgiveness of all of your past, your shame, your guilt, everything that you've held on to release it to him, and he is a God of forgiveness. So, Goldie, what now is God doing in your life that you have fully surrendered to Him? Which is so beautiful, and you're telling me what in our conversation prior to today that it took you 20 years to do something? So what is it in your life right now that God has moved you from, to in this life a full surrender to JESUS CHRIST share about that? Because it is pretty exciting?

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
It's a great question. Yeah, I guess it has been a real process. I always say it's a process, not an event. And I think you know, the most important thing for me, Kimberly, was that I had to totally surrender my painful past to the Lord. And actually, I did that, I believe it was in 2015, right before my 65th birthday, because I was still aware that I was holding on to things and I wasn't totally free. You know. And John 836 says, you know, so the sunsets is free, you will be free indeed, right. And I needed that freedom. So I totally surrendered. I talked about it more specifically in the book, my painful past to the Lord. And right after I did that the Lord brought a publisher to me, I finished writing the book, it was published in Jan, I'm sorry, December 2019. And, maybe, and then we had COVID. So nothing much happened that year, that title of that book is, is rainbow in the night, a journey of redemption. Wonderful. And, and so that's really exactly what it is. Because, you know, it was like a dark rainbow that can only be seen like through, you know, time lapse photography. And really, it is a lunar rainbow. But as I began to get better, and the Lord began healing me all of the colors of that rainbow brightened. And that's why, you know, starts out to be a rainbow in the night. And then as my life, you know, was totally redeemed by the Lord and I was free. And He healed me from so much that I've found that those colors are so much brighter. And I can say to other people, and I love this scripture and Isaiah 45 Three, which says, I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches, hidden and secret places so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name, Isaiah 45. Three. And so I love that scripture. Isn't that powerful, whatever we have in our past, and he can just take that and redeem that. And then now currently, the book is being made into a movie rainbow in the night movie. Yay, guiding because I just feel during this time, we need hopeful, faith based movies. Yes, we do. I really know that if the Lord can do this for me, that's the vision for the movie. He can do it for you too. And that's my full purpose in doing the movie is just to bring hope and encouragement, that indeed if we will surrender the Lord will heal us from our painful past.

Kimberly Hobbs  
So true, so true. And even even now in As you were writing and this book was coming out, I'm sure there was so much more healing in that book. Right? Yeah. And as you put it out, and you wrote with the Lord, and that came together, because there was no coincidence that you named it what you did. God gave you that name rainbow in the night and how you arrived at that, and that scripture again? Can you share that scripture one more time?

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Yes, Isaiah 45. Three, I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches, hidden and secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name, Isaiah 45, three.

Kimberly Hobbs  
Wow, ladies, I pray that you will write that scripture down Isaiah 45, three for your own life, He will give you those treasures, right, those treasures that we think are just we don't, we can't even grasp them. Because we can't, our brain can't go there because we're so burdened by all the hurt and all the things that we have. But that Scripture is hope. That's true hope, right? And now look what God is doing. She took that step of faith surrendered her life, to Jesus. And now Goldie has taken this book, and God took it to another level to a movie. And this movie now has been it's going I mean, right now they're in the stages. So how Goldy can people find you just to be able to look at the movie, look at what's going on with the book, and maybe be prayer partners with you and just help as this movie is still coming to fruition? Right? We want to know how can we all connect with you and pray for you and praise this through because others need to hear this amazing story of hope and encouragement?

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Well, thank you, Kimberly. Yeah, if you go to my website, rainbow in the night movie.com, you will see all about my story all about the book. And there's a six minute movie demo that's been produced. And then the way it's being funded is much like the chosen the crowd funding. So the budget, because so many people are volunteering, and you know, some of them. It's amazing. So the total budget to produce the movie with reenactment scenes, and everything will be about 50,000. Well, my friends so far have raised 25,000. So we just need 25, more 1000, which is really not being in the Lord's Kingdom. And if you'd like to help right on the website, there's a button that says Donate now. And if you click on that you go to a nonprofit through the National Christian foundation, and you can give your donation and get a tax deductible receipt, and then know that you're going to be a co producer in this movie, because I believe that everybody who's given a donation, everybody who prays, and we have a huge dream team, I like to call it the Dream Team of so many people coming alongside and surrounding the whole project with love and prayers. We couldn't do that without prayer. So prayer is probably the most important. But again, you know, we would like to see it funded soon so that we can finish the production and get it out to the world, maybe, maybe by May, perhaps, of 2023. So that's our next goal. So praise the Lord.

Kimberly Hobbs  
We will definitely join with you in prayer, Goldie, and as women listen, and who knows what God can do. And it just through the listening portion of this and like you said, I love that we all come together as women in Jesus that can understand each other. And that's how we we glean hope and encouragement from each other stories. And you do have a powerful story. And you know what it's like to be, you know, under that blanket burden, I shouldn't even say blanket because it's not a blanket, it's a burden. It's a sack of rocks that you carry of, you know, the past and but when we can all come together as women and help to point each other to Jesus to share where our hope lies. Our hope lies in Jesus Christ and what He did on the cross for our sins. And there is freedom in forgiveness, as you said, we can be free in Christ Jesus. So can you pour that hope and encouragement into the listener right now Goldie that has dealt with trauma? And maybe it's abortion in her life? Maybe it's something else? Or maybe she knows somebody who's gone through it, but she's carrying part of that burden. Can you pour into her right now? Just a word of encouragement?

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Yes. And if anybody wants to reach out to me by email, it's on the website. I'd be happy to direct them if they need healing after an abortion, because that's really important. But the scripture that I really love is May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him so that you may overflow Low with hope, by the power of the Holy Spirit, Romans 1513. And I think that kind of says it all. Because you know, it is all about hope. It's all about joy. It's all about knowing that only the Lord can do this. Because it can lift me up out of all that depression and bondage that I was under, he can do the same for you. And so you just have to be willing to come to the Lord and ask him, because anytime Jesus came up to anybody for healing, what did he say? He always asked the question, what do you want from me? Yes, to be able to come to him and tell him what you want? And he will answer because he did for me in a way, way beyond your Ephesians 320 Verse. exceedingly abundantly, what I could have ever hoped or imagined. So I know he can do the same for everyone who's listening right now, no matter what their situation, no

Kimberly Hobbs  
matter what their situation, and, you know, Goldy you just kind of mentioned your age, when you were sharing about when the book came out, and about starting your surrender it at 65. And I'm like, wait a minute, do you do not look, you know, more than 65 years old, and I so I'm kind of doing the math in my head. But I, the Scripture that comes to my mind is God says I will be your God throughout your lifetime until your hair is white with age, ladies, it's never too late to start what God puts on your heart when you surrender to him. I mean, look at Goldie, she starts writing her book in her 60s for 20 years, God was putting it on her heart to do this. And then when she surrendered and started and he says, I made you and I will care for you, I will carry you along and save you. Isaiah 46:4

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
And the latter day shall be greater than the foreman Amen. That's right.

Kimberly Hobbs  
That's right. And you are living that out and you are going to see this movie that God is going to bring to fruition and I will have prayer support for you and and to ever feels led to go to your website, Goldie and be part of this, it's it's a good thing. We need more of these movies that can touch the hearts of people change the hearts of people, to seek God with all their hearts, seek forgiveness, and be free from the bondage, right like began to go into the world and then be this shining light, just like coldy as this shining light for Jesus and I am so thankful to serve with you. And now Goldie is a in women world leaders, and she is writing one of her stories in Miracle mindset, a book that we have coming out through women, world leaders and, ladies, this is what it's all about. We would love for you to connect with us. You may have a story that you want to share with the world, you may be feeling nudged right now to do something, we have that opportunity in this ministry to serve the Lord with all your heart, it doesn't matter what your past is, as long as it's forgiven, right? If you've repented of what you've done, we serve a God that loves you that doesn't stop loving you forgives you, and wants to use you for your beautiful purpose that you were created, which is to glorify Him in every way. So please, ladies reach out to us, you might be a writer and one of our upcoming books will help you write. It's not that you have to be this famous author. No, you just have to give your yes to Jesus. And then we will step in and help you finish it. It's an amazing journey we go on with women together, and we have multiple books starting this year. So just reach out to us. You can reach out to me personally, at Kimberly at women world leaders.com. And just say I'm interested in sharing my story. And I will point you toward one of our books that is beginning and get you in there to start sharing with the world what God is doing in your life. And ladies, we just love you. And we just pray that if you are moved by today's podcast that you'll share this podcast. We have them available Monday, Wednesday and Friday through women world leaders podcast. Not only do we do interviews, like I just did with Goldie where she shared her story, but we have teaching podcasts on Wednesday and we go through the Gospels. We have celebrating God's grace on Friday where different women in the ministry get to share and pour into you to encourage you into the weekend. So lately there's ladies there are so many ways you can get involved in women world leaders and there is hope there is encouragement in the Lord Jesus Christ and we help each other They're by pointing them to Jesus. And I just want to thank you, Goldie, for today for being on and just sharing us with us a glimpse into your life and how God showed up and freed you from your past. to now be this amazing, Christ follower that serves Jesus with all her heart, a Messianic Jewish, saying, Amen. We are just so blessed to have you

Jane "Goldie" Winn  
Shalom. Allah him, means peace on to you.

Kimberly Hobbs  
Oh, beautiful. Thank you. Thank you and peace on to you. Ladies, God bless you. Thank you for tuning in today. All content is copyrighted by women world leaders and cannot be used without expressed written consent. Have a wonderful day ladies